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Sooooo.

First of all, I apparently don't have Celiac disease, which I'm thankful for. My stomach is probably upset because of stress. So let's think. What am I stressed about?

Well, my practical training is almost over, and I'm moving back to Ekenäs for school. That is frustrating because that takes me further away from my love. And my laptop is slow and unpractical (my bro tried to fix it, but it's still messy) so it's gonna get harder to keep in touch, so that sucks. And I don't yet have an apartment, mostly because I don't want to go that far but I have to, so I'll be staying at a friends place til I find one. (Bless her for that) Umm, and what else is stressing? We'll arguing with my parents at times, craving too much from myself, obsessing about things and stressing about being stressed. I must be stupid right?

Still, I don't know how to get rid of this anxiety/stress/bullshit and I don't know if it is trying to tell me something. What to do with it? Just relax right? How? I try, but just get...

Well hello everybody. Just thought it would be fun to write a bit about how things are. And I didn't feel like doing anything else, so here I am.

In general, things are good. My on-the-job training is going very well, it's diverse and I've learned a lot plus I've become aware of that I can do customer service pretty well, with some exercise. And you'd think, that after sewing all day I'd get enough, but actually, it's the complete opposite. I think I've never sewn this much this regularly in such a small period of time. I've learned new solutions and routine in my sewing. Really feeling it, but one thing is for sure. I do not want to start my own company or whatever. That would be too insecure and stressful for me.

My obsessive like sewing has again made me neglect my friends and I feel awful. I don't even really know why I sew so much. Well obviously yes, I do need clothes, but that's not the main reason. I guess part of it is that I miss my Johannes so much... It's not easy to love someone so much...

Forgot to mention this in my last entry.

So there you go. I've gotten glasses and a pierced eyebrow. :)

Take care!

Hugs!

This summer didn't turn out as I planned. But after a somewhat rocky start, it turned out much much better than I could have even hoped. I fell in love.

I haven't really sewn as much as I'd planned, cuz I've been so busy being in love, but that's ok. I've enjoyed myself. This is after all most likely my last summer holiday for a while. That because I intend to work next summer and don't even know what I'll do after that, cuz I graduate from my current school this spring. (most likely)

I've been away from home a lot. Maybe even more than I've actually been home. I was on the trip with my mum, and then I've been at Johannes' place 1 week + 2 weeks + 1,5 weeks. Haa, so I've spent like over a month there. I was home in between, he came with me most of the times, he is here now, sleeping. (snoring a bit, cuz he drunk a bit, and I couldn't sleep and I felt like writing so here I am.)

I actually thought myself to be the most unlikely person to fall in love. Guess I was wrong. Or maybe I was right before,...

So a few weeks ago I went to Switzerland/France with my mother to visit my brother who is doing his practical training over there at CERN .

It was the first time I flew in a plane which was exiting. It was also the furthest I've been from home. We were there for 5 days. Most of the time it was sunny and hot and my mum kept us on the move almost all the time walking around in Geneva and Lausanne looking at beautiful scenery and sights.

Here are some of the pictures I took. Enjoy!

Flight from Helsinki to Geneva. Beauuuutiful clouds!

Jura mountains. My Mum and brother in the foreground.

The Jet d'Eau in Lake Geneva.

Tiered feet in Lausanne. Lausanne is a city located about 50 km northeast of Geneva. We went there by train.

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found this randomly :D

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(Se on mun!)

Reconstruction of me, my life. I now realize I was a bit misdirected and now I'm slowly finding my way to something better. I guess life works that way. You make choices, that lead you somewhere and then sometimes you make bad choices and get lost and then you have a little crisis and redirect your life to another direction. That's how I see it anyways. And I like it mostly. Because that means that things change. I would get so bored if they didn't. And I guess we all need to endure some agony for the sake of balance.

So I've decided I want to be kinder to people. Because I want to. Not because I feel I have to. Life's too short to waste it by bickering, fighting and being bitter. There's much better things to do with all that energy. Something good like helping yourself and others. It will make you feel good, I promise. Help because you want to help, not because you want to gain favors. Karma will pay you back in the long run.

So my life is undergoing changes. Still me. Just going to a new...