moments to share, moments to care

of not working the steps.

i've always wondered when hearing that people tend to fall off the wagon right after hitting a sobriety anniversary. i felt it so clearly yesterday. it is all due to unresolved feelings and lack of work with the program, expecting a miracle.

one more week and it will happen, 3 more days, tomorrow..
but the miracle never arrives, because there is no miracle.
it is a simple 24 hour day by day kind of a deal. no more, no less.
it works if you work it.

so today i let it all out. i felt like shit, but everything that had been gathered up, just had to get out.
it hurt like hell.
i'm glad it didn't cost me sobriety, but it was a high price to pay none the less.

these 24 hours are over.
tomorrow is a new day.

i pray tomorrow is a better day.

Skrivet av arlona, 2018-10-22 22:06