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one of the most frustrating stages of acceptance is the bargaining stage. in denial, there is bliss. in anger, there is some sense of power. in bargaining, i am thrown between believing there is something i can do to change things and realizing there isn't.
if i will do this, that will happen.
if i will be better, smarter, more dedicated, this and that will happen.
if i will be perfect, someone might love me.
i do big, small, and all kinds of things, sometimes crazy things to avoid the pain involved with accepting reality. there is no substitute for accepting reality.
recognizing the bargaining phase is already a step in the right direction.
today, i pray i can let go and accept the reality as inconvenient as i find it.
Skrivet av arlona, 2018-11-06 15:26