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i've been really blessed with some amazing people around me. i wouldn't wanna say that i idealize them in the conservative sense of the word, but here it is: since these people, regardless of occupation, gender, age (yupp, i'm very opne minded) are so amazing for one or another reason in my eyes, i am convinced that everyone else on the planet should have the same opinion about them. everyone else should be thinking of them as awesome. turns out it isn't so (surprise surprise). my friends also have people who don't appreciate them. my friends also have people around who find them weirdos. who find them outcasts. etc.

this is absurd to me.
my friends are too awesome for anyone to think about them.

but from the other side - it feels sort of.. ok.. knowing that.. well i am not the only one surrounded by this.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-09-27

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amazing. im prolly one of the happiest ppl on the planet. life is again,worth living.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-09-23

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this summer i made a big mistake. so i thought. the mistake was showing the worst part of me. a freakout. for a long time i couldn't forgive myself for having shown it, thought it wasn't directed at anyone, my freak outs are still ugly.
i thought it was going to affect my future with no doubt.

i thought that because of my freak out, i had destroyed everything - and however hard i would try to deny it - unfortunately i do things like that.
it brings me four years back to a friend saying the same thing, documented neatly in another piece

but then it hit me.
thank god it happened sooner rather than later.
it would have been way worse living for a year and then having seen me like that.
i've always said- the sooner you get to see my dark sides, the sooner you can make up your mind either accepting me for the best and the worst, or just avoiding me. i'm not really up for small talks.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-09-18

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best one ever.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-09-17

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if anyone finds my ego, please give it back to me.

since ive lost it, it has been really difficult.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-09-11

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this has been one of the best days by far. i am so fully of energy. there is a huge difference between being unemployed and searching for a goal in life, and actually seeing a goal, feeling a use of my own life and having billions of ideas. my quite strict gym activities have brought results which have of course contributed to the confidence. but also, now since the priorities are in order, and now i can have some "me" time. maybe this sounds ridiculous, since there hasnt been anyone stopping me, but now i feel like im living for myself. there are so many things im doing now that i wouldnt think of doing before. not because anyone forbade me, but because i didnt feel like doing anything. yupp. unemployment. i knew stokholm was gonna be life changing experience. you go girl :)

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-08-28

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a great day indeed this one. the knowledge accumulated the day before, has soaked in me through a sleepless night, putting a more solid foundation for the future development.
full of faith. not so much the cute cuddly stuff. but good, fine stuff.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-08-27

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i'm back in sthm after a weekend home. funny how life never stops at one point and we get more and more challenges to face and situations to solve.
but unlike the beginning of the week, when i was scared of change and frustrated about whats right and wrong, now everything seems clear. i have been too caught up in my own ideas and thoughts, as well as making up illusions and believing in them. hoping and expecting too much comes down heavy to me in the form of disappointment, and sometimes i forget to keep some distance. but there is no one to blame. the only way is to write it down, sleep on it and wake up with more positive outlook on the world.

in the end, life is pretty awesome, aye? sometimes i forget how much i am capable on my own..

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-08-27

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