moments to share, moments to care
slowly but surely i've started my soulsearching and putting my life together. this time of singleness will probably be one of the most valuable and fruitful times for me as a personality, mutually beneficial for everyone getting involved in my social circle.
first off - boundaries. have been really loose with them which has expressed in two ways:
1. i have been keeping around people that i am not really into so much just for ego feed which has been a bit pathetic and sort of cruel. cutting those ties right now.
2. i have been desperate to have a relationship with people that aren't that into me - like my step mother and step sister. the necessity to belong to a family has been so strong that i have accidentally ignored the people that have actually made me feel like a family without the formal title. i have ignored the ones that have been there for me in time of need (and let's be honest, i can be very needy).
second off - getting myself into difficult situations, thus becoming a victim that needs...
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there is a limit to everything.
my mind might be corrupt at times, but my heart has stayed childish and pure.
surprisingly it has taken so many shots and blows and managed to stay just as naive and full of life/hope/faith as always.
but there comes a time when the blows outweigh the happiness that an open heart brings to anyone. there is a time when you start questioning if it is worth being an open and sincere person, is it worth living with your heart and not your mind? cuz looking from aside, slowly it starts to seem that it pays off to be an asshole, to distance yourself from the true self and just put on a fake mask.
can i ever be that person?
i'm too tired of people. too tired of the blows they give to that honest and loving side of me. too tired of being a pawn in someone else's chess game.
done for now.
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