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moments to share, moments to care

just as i start getting the impression i get smth from life, i also get thrown into situations that prove me wrong. this is not my game anymore. i suck. or frankly i am too busy making excuses and too lazy to make an effort. and pretty darn good ar destroying my self esteem with kilos of guilt.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-07-03

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today, at a supermarket, despite wearing my flat sneakers, jeans and a grey tshirt, i felt a lot more beautiful than two chicks in high heels and short shorts. yupp, that's a side effect of gym. and a self esteem increased by a loving person.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-06-26

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irrational behavior doesn't respond to rationality.
it responds to fear.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-06-20

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it seems that in a relationship, every guy wants to feel like he is the strong one. the supporter. the head.
i think that i will have to pretend weaker than i am for the greater good, since the stronger doesn't really work out that well.

can i pull it off?

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-06-11

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despite the fact that my personality over the past years has become a lot milder, sensitive, and tolerant, unfortunately my sense of humor has remained sarcastic and cynic, unintentionally causing misunderstandings and hurting the people close to my heart.

with jealousy i sometimes listen to amazing friendly jokes, which i can appreciate but never come up with myself.

can anything be done about this to lessen the harm?

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-05-31

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unfortunately i come to find that someones happiness is still a burden, bad news, and annoyance to others. too bad those others might classify as friends. well well.. i guess i'm too used to my actual friends being really happy for me (:

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-05-25

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i never thought that i will work so hard and suppress all my female manipulative instincts, my egoistic urges, and the taste of power, just to make it work in a very long long run. and surprisingly enough, it is easier than i thought.

i guess that's what you do when you really love someone.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-05-23

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my friends who have known me for a long time, also know this very pathetic thing about me: i used to want to be a victim. not only did i complain about the present things, blaming them on the past experiences, using past as a constant excuse, but also i tried to put myself into various, even dangerous situations, where instinctively i knew the result would be me getting hurt, just so i could complain about it later.

that part is thankfully over.

at the moment, when i am so deep into my own personal problems, i don't feel any urge to tell anyone about it.
everything will pass eventually. no need to exaggerate things by talking about them.

but a drink would be nice.

so good to be different.

Skrivet av arlona, 2012-05-11

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