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moments to share, moments to care

just a few months ago i barely kept my head above water and struggled to stay alive. after 2 suicide attempts, 47 kilos of weight and most of the hair gone, it had to stop one way or another. back then, i didn't see any way out of it, luckily, my Man did.

now my life has become calm and wonderful, aside from 5 professionally dramatic and stressful weeks in sweden, and unless i want to slip into the comfort zone, it's time to admit that i'm healed and need to get back out there, being tough and disciplined to achieve goals.

so, i've made a list for my future self. it includes personal physical, mental and intellectual goals. it includes working out (i've already made a mini gym at home which is so awesome), eating healthy, finish my summerhouse project, make extra cash to pay for it, and read, write, translate, play music and enjoy the wonderful environment and people around me.

and live, finally live.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-10-10

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years and years i've sailed through life chosing different roles depending on the occasion.
floated through various relationships, playing the dream girl , depending on the partner. Tech girl, metal girl, musical girl, business shark, sexy bunny, gym freak, intellectual, political activist... i learn fast and saw that as an opportunity to explore my horizons and learn something during the short time i surely knew would pass soon. and as long as they weren't opposing my basic values to the bone, it was fine.

the victories seemed always surprising and ego-feeding (what a great actress i am and so impressed by the speed of learning), lead by a general sense of insecurity (i knew it wasn't me. if that person saw me, he would turn away. over the time i wasn't even sure who i was).

this year was the first time, thanks to therapy and the brutal, necessary breakup, i faced myself in the mirror. tossed out all belongings who represented a trophy more than my true self. everything, that i kept for "small talk"...

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-10-03

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my life? still perfection.

had my first vacation abroad with my Man, not a single fight, just pure fun, childish joy, sweet and wonderful time spent together.

still have great relationship with both my parents. no fights, no arguments.
actually i'm lying. got into a huge fight with my dad (2nd fight ever). but it was a very necessary argument to be discussed. and it had a very very good ending to it.

rocking as a team leader and improving my swedish by 200%, i've actually become surprisingly fluent. multitasking and receiving compliments from bosses.

changed almost my entire wardrobe. Man makes me take care of myself, so for the first time in my life i'm splurging on myself with no guilt. no more old, worn out jeans and dirty sneakers. i'm way too pretty and elegant for that. that doesn't mean i'm only wearing high heels and chanel lipstick - come on, it's still me.

weather is amazing. stockholm is spoiling me with sunny, warm weather.

my Man? gives me the best life advice. first person...

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-09-20

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i'm not judging, i just like to shoot straight.

i don' t have the time or energy to waste on pretense conversations.
also, very interested.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-09-03

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i'm really not a "black-and-white" kind of person.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-09-02

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finally i have regained respect from my friends, parents, colleagues, employers.

but most importantly, from myself.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-09-02

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makes me feel like a queen without humbling himself.
makes me feel fragile, while enforcing me being powerful.
makes me feel feminine without belittling me.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-08-17

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i can barely believe how awesome my life has become.

this summer is just epic.

Skrivet av arlona, 2017-08-17

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